Let go.

Sunday night, and like clock work, all my deep thoughts come creeping out when the week is ending. I have started to notice that I see every week as a little chapter, and I really work hard on making every day as good as possible. Strangely enough the days that I enjoy most are the days I'm in school or sitting at a cafe studying. I get a weird kind of anxiety from having 3 days off every weekend, and this is very very weird I am aware off that. I just don't like not having stuff to do, because there's more room for my mind to wander.

I haven't been working a lot on my book lately, and I haven't felt the need to blog either unfortunately. The motivation really comes and goes, and the times I write the most are the times when I feel hurt or sad over something. That's when I need my own advice the most. Because I know that my inner me knows whats best for me in every situation.

Right now everything is really really good. I only have 3 more weeks in school, I bought my very first car yesterday, I am applying for internships, I have someone I miss, I love every friend and family member I have here and in Sweden, and I practice and I become a stronger more confident person each week, which I am so grateful for.

Because I have had doubts. I have had so many doubts about myself that if someone would get to be inside my head for a day they would be shocked. I am working so so soooo hard on making my own head a place where I feel calm and secure. My mind has a way of acting like a wild horse sometimes. It escalades really fast when it happens and I can get the worst anxiety. But I reached a point months ago when I just felt like I was so tired of being a victim to my own thoughts. So when it happens, I just yell NO! inside my head and I redirect my thoughts. It has been hard for me, but I am learning how to master my mind.

From last weekend, Valentine's Day

Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself every morning that "I Am Strong". Because you are. Remember my post called "we are all super heroes" ?
We all have powers we possess that takes us through the roughest of times. We just need to learn how to use them to our best capability. That is all done in our mind.

I believe outer factors can help us, but ultimately I believe that our thoughts run our lives. Since I started to really work on myself, I have seen changes in me and in my surroundings. When I let go, that is when things just clears up in front of me. When I let go of all the thoughts of negativity. Trust me when I tell you this. It is when you let go that life start to make sense.



Stop allowing your mind to run off and make up negative scenarios in your head, because trust me that is your biggest, most evil, self destructing enemy.