I'm overwhelmed

Well, I don't even know where to begin. I am so overwhelmed with everything that has been going on in my life lately. How this year started off, and that it's only been a month and a half but it could easily have been 6 months.

I have gotten through 6 weeks of 10 at Antioch. My second quarter is almost over, and I haven't even been able to register that it started. Since I got back, I have gone through physical and psychological pain. It is nothing I will share on my blog, but I am just so grateful that most of it is over and that the person who I was so close to leaving behind is still in my life.

I was planning on going home to Sweden in March, but I decided to stay here. I can't keep running back to Sweden every time something happens, I need to stare the problem right in the eye and just deal with it. Because this is where I live, this is home.

Anyways, life keeps on going, I meditate, I do my yoga, go to the gym, go to school, BUT. BUT, something major has happened; I started writing my book. 

This book so far is just a bunch of notes from experiences, inspirational readings, research on some topics, self-love tips, meditation, my own emotional ups and downs and how I handle them etc, but my goal is to finish it by the end of 2015. It will turn in to a guide on how to find yourself, be yourself and most importantly how to learn to love yourself. Very simple, and easy to read. I am very very excited! Because I have been dreaming about writing a book since I was like 10 years old.

I have started to practice something really important, which is about changing your own subconscious mind patterns. You practice visualization. And you need to reach a stage where you are so sure of the outcome you want that there is no anxiety, worry or frustration involved whatsoever. You Just Know.

Like you know that you will get home after work..

..I have made a new friend these last couple of weeks, and it was my favorite teacher Guy Smith who introduced us. He saw that we have similar goals in life, so he suggested we should get together for a coffee. I am so happy he did, because me and Jimmy have very good conversations about how to create the best life possible. Last time I saw him, he told me about his former boss in Sweden who has been his greatest inspiration in life so far. This man explained this phenomena of being so certain of the outcome that there is no other option, and he described it so simply and so geniously. Listen to this;

You drive to work in the morning. How do you get home after work? You get in the car and you drive home. What happens if the road you usually take is blocked? You find another way and drive around it right? But what if that road is also blocked? You keep driving until you eventually get home, right? Because even if you run in to road blocks, you don't just turn off your car and start crying thinking you will never get home, you just find another way because you know you will get home somehow.

This is how life works. You set a goal, and you need to know like you know like you KNOW that you will get there. And even if you hit some bumps or road blocks, you will not get frustrated and give up! You will reach your goal.

That's it for today. I am going to bed soon, I will say my thanks like I always do, and I will be so excited to get up in the morning because it's a brand new day filled with tons of opportunities.

Love.