A dream.

I thought I would have so much to write about now that I finally take time to write but my mind is blank. No stress, no excitement, no nothing.

It could be because I'm really sick. I've been stuck at home for 4 days with fever and flu symptoms. I have barely been able to study these days, all I do is sleep. 

It could also be because Saturday was maybe as crazy as it could possibly get and I realized I need a change soon. I started feeling a sore throat before I took a lyft down to Kirstine's but I didn't listen to my poor body. 

Me, Elisabeth and Kirstine had one hell of a night. Cadiz, Eos, Cadiz, Eos. Falling, falling. 

I've been living like there's no tomorrow and even though that is a good thing, there are actually some consequences. 

Sunday was filled with anxiety. Not because I had done something wrong or bad or even worth mentioning, but because I can't keep living like this. I have been living like this since I was 15. And yes sure, I usually have an awesome time and we keep screaming yolo and laugh till our stomachs hurt because it's the most ridiculous word we know, and we do shots, we dance, we are forever young and yada yada.

But.

I have a dream. A dream to wake up next to someone super awesome, kiss his neck, scratch his back, say good morning and see his smile. Make breakfast together in our home, drink coffee, and read the newspaper while our feet play with each other under the table. And drink a few glasses of red wine on the weekends instead of half a bottle of vodka.

Yup.

This does not mean that I am on a desperate hunt. It's the opposite. I probably don't even have time for this dream to come true yet. I just miss being able to spoil someone. 

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One more thing, next week is my last week in school! I'm done with my first quarter in one week. I'm so excited and I am actually looking forward to the next one, starting on Jan 5th. 

Have a great week everyone, and send me some healthy thoughts so I get better soon!