Look a little further

Before I moved to California and still lived in my apartment in downtown Vasteras, I remember reading a book and I think it was written by Paolo Coelho. He wrote about how people create a "magical space" which consist of 5 meters. We have that circle around us, and about 95 % of everything we see and notice are things that are inside these 5 meters. When you think about it you realize that it's true.

To be able to really see the world we need to look beyond these 5 meters. In that particular book, a woman started seeking the horizon. She started seeing beyond those meters and raised her head to see the horizon and she described it as "her soul grew". 

That quote hit me today and I don't even know why. I think I've been stuck in my little 5 m bubble more or less since I moved back home. It's a safe space indeed. I'm so ready to expand it again though. A lot. 

I need to challenge myself, and I'm talking about challenges that will make me a better person, not challenges that turn me in to a stressed and bad person. I need to see the bigger picture, look further, seek the horizon, see all the amazing things that surround me every day.

 I've been so hard on myself for a long time, and I haven't seen more than probably 2 meters around me. About a month ago, I walked 20 meters behind my best friend all the way to work and I didn't see her until we both had to stop at a red light. I was so caught up in my thoughts and my stress. I think that was my final wakeup call.

I truly believe that challenges are what makes you grow, but you need to listen to your gut. I finally listened and I made a decision that changed my life over night basically. I'm more than grateful for everything that I've learned since September, but it's time to learn new things and listen to what my heart says.

I've had time to sleep in now, workout as long as I want, read all my amazing books, talk to myself in the mirror, and most importantly: I WANT to meditate again! I've been doing it a few times a week more or less since I moved to Sweden but I've felt like I've been forcing myself. I look forward to it again now and that's HUGE, and I'm so happy about it. 

My soul grew so much during my years in California, but it managed to shrink back when I started letting other people and circumstances control me, and that's all my fault. I'm so ready to expand again and I'm suuuuuper excited about this summer! My gut tells me it will be the best summer so far in my life and I'm really proud of myself for listening to my body and my heart. 

Change comes from YOU, no one else. Don't ever blame others. You have the power, and you're in control. If you don't stand for opinions or actions of others, you don't have to keep them in your life. 

Surround yourself with people who can lift you up. People who will help your soul grow.

I'm re-reading "the power" right now, and this one quote had stuck with me all day:

" A change of feeling is a change of destiny."

Your perception of the world is what create your entire life. Life is amazing, I'm telling you, you just have to look a little further, and see the horizon. 

Love.