Repair yourself

I ran in to a picture online about a year ago:

It got to me, straight to the heart. That pottery has character now. It's been broken but it's fixed with gold and it's pretty cool right? It's unique.

In between the age of 21-26 I went through panic attacks, severe depression, saw a therapist, couldn't work for 6 months, did multiple tests to see what was wrong with my heart, went on beta blockers to control the heartbeat, had ultrasounds, severe cell changes in the cervix stage 3 which is a pre-stage to cancer, had surgery, developed eating disorders..and went through a terrible heartbreak. 

But I got through it all. My parents, my friends, the support from others, and most of all, my own will and my vision to be this strong person, was and still is my gold. The gold that put the broken pieces back together. I believe I've got character today, I believe in myself in a way that not a lot of people do.

Us humans have such an amazing support system that heals us from anything. The body supports us, and say a heartbreak will eventually stop hurting physically, but our mindset is what will make the bigger difference. 

Don't close your mind, open it up. Seriously. Where you're at now won't be where you're at in the future. Picture all the possibilities. Take wisdom from past hardships, and remember that you've been through bad times before and you made it through. 

You will again. You've been fixed before, and life isn't about finding perfection, because you will be hurt, sad or broken again that's something we all know. Life is about finding the gold that will be your glue, the glue that will be there for life, and the gold that makes you..you. 

Repair yourself. The fucked up things that smashes you into peaces is what you can look back on and say thank you to. You learn from everything. Value that.