What a difference

It's such an amazing morning. I meditated, and I did it with a purpose again, which I haven't in more than 2 months. I've done yoga 3 mornings in a row, and I have filled my fridge with juices, veggies and fruit.

I'm listening to Iration, drinking coffee, and preparing to hit the gym.
I have found my way back to motivation. I remember this feeling, but I haven't felt it in forever and I can't even explain how excited I am about my future at this moment!

I've gone through a really messed up thing these last couple of weeks, where I was thrown into a surreal situation that I just had to solve immediately. It was the ultimate explanation for my behavior and the feelings that I've been having lately that I don't recognize.
Even though I share a lot in this blog there are certain things that I will never ever share, I respect my privacy, and I hope that you all do too.

What's important here is that with the right tools, you can find your way back to yourself. I was on a path where I dropped everything and just let the negative spiral drag me along. To hell with that!
I feel like a new person now. Today especially. You know when you feel like nothings really changed but your attitude towards life, and suddenly all you see are all your blessings? It's the best feeling in the world, because it means you don't need external items or people to feel happy when you've been far down, because it's always about your attitude.

I'm so happy that I'm able to use the hardships I go through as very important tools in life. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself, like everyone does at times, but I always manage to feel gratitude for the experience when I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Instead of blaming situations and say "I am like this and like that, because of what happened to me and I can't change that" and feel sorry for yourself all the time, use the same situation and say "Fuck yes, I'm so grateful that it happened to me and it made me realize that I can live through it and it made me stronger".

I look forward to my future journey, and I keep planning for the upcoming week instead of planning an entire year like others usually do. Nothing ever turns out exactly the way we plan, so just go with the flow. Let whatever happens to you happen to you.

My future week will be spent in Amsterdam with 2 of my best friends, and that's all the planning I need to do right now. I'm finishing this year with my head held high, and 2016: just bring it.