Sweet uncertainty

My favorite class this quarter is without a doubt my mindfulness class. Since we start and end the class with meditation, I'm in a state of being completely open and able to take all the information in, and it is incredibly though-provacitive.

I find myself questioning things I've believed in the past, and it is really fascinating. I'm actually really grateful for the fact that I'm not small-minded, I have always been able to absorb and take in new views on life. I see my mind as an open space that collects inspiration and wisdom and I will continue my entire life.



We discussed uncertainty yesterday, and my teacher asked if anyone in the class is completely comfortable with uncertainty. He said it's really scary for a lot of people, and most of us seek some form of validation even though we know that nothing in life is certain.

I had to throw in a comment because I have a way of coping with it. Instead of seeing the unknown as something scary and plant scenarios I know nothing about, I have started to change my view. I told the class that I feel excited instead. I have no idea what I will do in Sweden for example, where I'll live, what kind of job I'll get, what new people I will meet, but that's not scary it's insanely exciting! I don't even know what I will do this afternoon, and literally anything can happen. One girl in the class just sat with an open mouth and said; "I have never thought of it that way in my entire life".

Basically everything in life comes from within, because your perception decide how you deal with what life gives you. It's your mind, your thoughts, and you are in charge. My teacher told us that when anxiety comes along for example, you need to notice it right away, visualize yourself looking at it outside of your body and just tell it "You're not in control of me, I am".

I have a very strong belief that our minds are our greatest asset but also our most hostile enemy if we don't use it right, and that can scare the hell out of me. I think of the amazing capacity of our minds and how much potential that lies in every single human being, but how so many people live their lives on autopilot and stay in a small-minded "I know everything already" state of mind their entire lives because they don't understand the astonishing power of our mind.

I want to see the world as a beautiful place, so I will focus on staying excited about uncertainty instead of trying to find validation and certainty. Because I can rely on my own capacity of feeling happy and excited, but I can never rely on validation because one of the greatest truth in life is that nothing can be taken for granted.