Back to California..

I'm all packed and almost ready for bed and I'm filled with mixed emotions.

I'm gonna get on that Norwegian plane to LA tomorrow that I've been on so many times, but this time it's completely different. I'm not going "home" now.

I understand that it might sound weird to some people, but this trip will symbolize the first time I'm going back to where it all started after making the decision to move back to Sweden; this blog, my studies, living in a different country, discovering my spiritual side on a whole different level, all the friendships I made, the love I experienced. I'm going back to the place where I created a new life.

Right now I can't even imagine how it will feel to walk down to the beach, sit down in the sand and look at the waves like I did thousands of times before. Trust me, there will be tears involved.

I'm gonna see all the people that I saw on a regular basis that I haven't seen in 15 months or more..It's almost surreal.

I've imagined this so many times since September last year, and it's happening tomorrow. California has a very very special place in my heart. Not just because I spent 4 years living there, but because it changed me. I owe my strength, my self-confidence, my standing on my own two feet to that place. I'm so glad I made the decision to go there now, timing couldn't have been any better.

I'll try to write updates during these 2 weeks, but don't count on it. I'll probably be too busy hugging people and walk down streets reminiscing..