Then, and now.

I can't even remember how long its been since I blogged! I'm so sorry. A lot of things have happened since I wrote last time..I was unemployed and didn't have my own place, I was frustrated and I was restless. BUT:

I bought my apartment on Mariaberget in Stockholm 3 weeks ago and I'm moving in in a week. I can't wait, because now I'm forced to commute since I got a great job as project manager at a really cool action marketing agency in Stockholm! And even though it's just a 55 min train ride from my hometown it's still rough. I wake up at 5 am and get home at 7 pm ish..

About a week ago I took a walk during my lunch break and I sat down in this park close to where I work. For some reason I started thinking about where I was 6 months ago, and suddenly I remembered how I felt about everything. How I felt about moving back to Sweden, about what kind of job I wanted, about where in Stockholm I wanted to live and so on.
As I was sitting in that park I just got some sort of awakening, and it hit me that I was actually starting to settle in, and that everything I was stressing about back then was solved..and that I'm really happy.

I was so indecisive 6 months ago. It was a constant battle in my head. One day I wanted to stay in California and live the simple hippie style life forever, and the other I wanted to move back home and settle down. I was sick of being in school but I was terrified about start working again too. I was scared of turning into the person I was in Sweden before I moved when I was 26, if I decided to move back. I was equally scared of ending up alone if I stayed in California, without close friends and my supporting family.

All that is dead and gone now. I haven't felt regret even once since I bought my place and got this job. I'm right where I want to be. I will always miss Santa Barbara, but I needed to leave in order to move forward. I am ready for whatever this new life has to offer. I'm already super challenged by my job, and I know that this experience will turn me into an incredibly strong individual. In this field, you need to have some balls and stand up for yourself, and I am more than up for the challenge.

I made the choice, and I chose Sweden.